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made a new journal. goodbye to this one after using it for like 3897289570234957820387 years.
NEW JOURNAL: www.livejournal.com/users/__burnlikeastar
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[12 Sep 2005|09:23pm] |
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Buried Myself Alive*The Used |
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I miss someone alot right now.
I want to cry.
Shut the fuck up and don't tell me to stop thinking about it because I fucking can't.
At least right now I can't.
P.S.
.I'm in love with a girl and her name is Kerynn Morss.
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[12 Sep 2005|06:39am] |
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Counting Stars*Sugarcult |
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My brother has been uploading files for his iPod all day. It's taking up AIM so I can't use that right now.
And myspace isn't working. Yes, I am a myspace whore and fuck people that make fun of it that use it constantly.
So basically LJ is all I have right now.
Today, as said in the previous entry, is my birthday. It really doesn't feel like I'm 16 at all. I got $45 for birthday money. $30 will be put into me getting my permit. The rest I'll probably spend on stupid shit because when I have money I fucking spend it quickly.
I'm pretty bored. And I've been thinking all day. Thinking sucks for me lately. I can't get my mind to focus on good things. Especially when there's so much good for me right now. bitchbitchbitch.
I've been doing pretty good in school lately. Maybe this year I wont blow everything again and actually get descent grades.
I miss my brother.
I miss a lot of things.
Counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to
Counting stars again
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| HEY THERE! |
[12 Sep 2005|05:47am] |
HAPPY BIRFDAY TO ME!!!!!
Today I am officially 16.
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[08 Sep 2005|05:27am] |
Today was the first day in the 16 years that I've known my mother that I've ever heard her say fuck.
Matt got kicked out.
I am terrified everytime my family fights like that.
my day went from okay to fucking shit in a matter of five minutes.
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[07 Sep 2005|06:17am] |
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My last two days of summer were awesome.
Starting off with going to taco bell with my brother, coming home to a house full of awesome drunk people.
And while Greg was showing me Doc's car, Eddie's car pulls into my driveway and none-other than JENNY FUCKING NGUYEN tackles me to the ground with love. I missed her so sosososoososo much!
We chilled at my house for a while then went to say hi to Fred. When we came back Eddie had to go home so Jenny and I chilled with Greg and he was so drunk that he let us put makeup on him.
Jenny and Greg ended up sleeping over. The next morning we all went to Island Grove Park in Abington and I took pictures and chilled with some sweet ass people. It was a great way to end the summer.
My first two days of school have been good. I love my photography class, I can't wait to get started working in it.
I dropped my cell phone in soup the other day. It sucks super bad not having a cell phone and I lost everyone's number so I need to get them all back.
( PICTURES! )
..I am missing someone terribly right now..
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[04 Sep 2005|05:50am] |
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Tonight will be the last night of summer that I can stay out late.
Too bad none of my friends are around to hang out with.
To tell you the truth I'm kinda glad summer is ending.
It was great to begin with but now it's just dragging on and boring and I've spent most of my time sitting on my couch being bored and sad.
Last night I went to a bar with my brother.
Never Again.
It was so fucking boring. I sat there and watched my brother play pool and watched fat middle-aged men and women sing and dance.
Though I did see a drunk break dancing asian man.
When my cousin, his girlfriend Erika and her friend Andy got there it wasn't as bad.
When we all got home we went in the hot tub for a while. It was fun.
OH YEAH... we didn't go to the fair today due to my brother being asleep this morning. grrrrr.
AND.. I miss Jenny.
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[03 Sep 2005|01:13am] |
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nothing, my brothers are asleep. |
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My parents are gone till Monday.
I'm not going to King Richards Fair today. Instead I'm going tomorrow.
All my friends are gone. I have no one to hang out with.
This makes a girl sad.
P.S. Today is Andrew McMahon's 23rd or maybe 24th birthday.
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[02 Sep 2005|02:53am] |
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Haven't really updated in a few days.
Today is my brother's birthday. He's turning 22. The familys all going out to eat tonight then tomorrow my parents are going to Pennsylania for the weekend.
I'm going to King Richard's Fair tomorrow. wicked excited!
School starts Tuesday. I'm really excited that I got into photography. I hope it's fun.
Not much else excited is really going on in my life at this point in time.
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[30 Aug 2005|06:03am] |
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Rescued*Jack's Mannequin |
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Last night I fell asleep to the sound of rain. It was very peaceful.
I was supposed to hang out with Kerynn yesterday but she was out with her parents all day.
I went school shopping today. Got 3 shirts, 2 pairs of pants, 2 bras and one hoodie. I saw Sammy and Alex at the mall. It was good to see them again.
ATTN: My sixteenth birthday party will be held September 10 somewhere around 2 o'clock at my hizzy. Anyone that wants to go let me know. I already made a list of who I'm inviting but if for some reason I forgot you then tell me and you can commme!!
Anywho.. I cleaned my disgusting room today. Thank god. I couldn't see the floor anymore and I always tripped over shit when I walked in. I did not make my bed but oh fucking well.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand, I'm out.
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[28 Aug 2005|10:34am] |
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i suck tonight.
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| and I still find him irresistable... |
[28 Aug 2005|02:04am] |
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COHEED AND FUCKING CAMBRIA! |
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Last night was a good night.
I chilled with the Exen Films Crew and we visited Christine at work.
Then we went to Hanson to see the TB hospital because I've never seen it before.
Let me tell ya, anyone who hasn't seen it, it's fucking incredible.
It's like something out of a horror movie.
We didn't go in it. I will never enter that fucking place.
After leaving that nightmare, we went to blockbuster/picked up Christine and Colleen and then went back to my hizzy.
Christine slept over and we stayed up till the sun rose. Or at least I did hah.
We watched the Blair Witch Project and I don't care what anyone says, that movie IS scary.
Today Kerynn is hopefully coming over. I miss herrrrrr
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[27 Aug 2005|03:18pm] |
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The Mixed Tape*Jack's Mannequin |
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So far today I've done absoloutely nothing.
Haven't eaten yet. Nor showered, and that's something I should probably do soon. I haven't showered in 2 days.
Maybe I will take a shower and go for a walk. I need to get rid of everything @#$%^&* in my head.
I've wanted to cry alot today, but I haven't..yet.
blahblahblah.
"It's like I wrote every note with my own fingers"
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[26 Aug 2005|10:03am] |
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Kerynn's voice on the phone |
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I don't really know why I'm updating.
The past few nights have been beautiful. I stared at the stars for a while tonight. It was beautiful.
I finally hung out with Anthony last night. He lost a shit load of weight.
We took a shit load of pictures. I'll post em' later.
Kerynn Morss=love.
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[25 Aug 2005|01:00am] |
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Jack's Mannequin |
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Christine comes home tomorrow.
I am hanging out with her finally.
Eddie totalled his car.
R.I.P. Eddie's car.
Luckily, Eddie is okay.
WHY IS THE FUCKING AC ALWAYS ON IN THIS ROOM!?
I'll be 16 soon so I can finally get a job.
I'm probably going to apply to TCBY so I can work with Christine.
I'm scared to get a job though, because I'm afraid I will fuck up somehow.
I think my brother is coming up here to go to sleep so I'm gunna go downstairs.
Maybe sit outside and watch the stars. I haven't done that in a long time.
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[24 Aug 2005|04:07pm] |
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The Vines are stuck in my head |
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Went to the mall with Allison, Stephanie, and Nick today.
Got new shoes and a new back pack.
Bumped into Brittany and Josh Smith.
Josh bought me the Jack's Mannequin CD <333333333333333333333
Then we went to BK and chicken fries are fucking delicious.
I need a shower. kbye.
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[24 Aug 2005|12:21pm] |
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Last night I lost someone who used to be very special to me...
Maybe I shouldn't have been such a bitch? Maybe it's better this way? I don't know.
I feel like I did the right thing.. but I'm still incredibly upset over it.
I'm never going to forget him. Never in my wildest dreams could I do that.
For now I'm just going to suck it up. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now.
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[23 Aug 2005|06:29pm] |
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SHH WE'RE IN A FUCKING LIBRARY |
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At the library with Kerynn.
Russell I miss you!!
Didn't really do anything today except sit around Kerynn's household and watch Laguna Beach ♥ ♥
My mom told me to stop caring about boys this morning. It was kinda funny.
PEACE OUT NIG-SLICE!
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[23 Aug 2005|12:08pm] |
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I had a good day today. Up until I got home.
When I got home from the mall with Kerynn, my mom yelled at me and pretty much grounded me for the day because I called my cousin and asked him to drive us to the Kingston mall. (since he lives in Kingston anyway.)
and he did not mind what-so-ever driving me but for some reason my mom still felt it neccessary to ground me tomorrow.
Then just shit has been running through my mind alot lately. I don't really know what's going on anymore. I'm kind of confused.
And the only person I need to tell this all to doesn't seem to care..
So.. I basically hate everything.. and maybe tomorrow I will feel better. but I doubt it.
My livejournal has been full of bitching lately. so you should just stop reading it. kbye
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